Tuesday, October 21, 2014
So this past weekend was King's and Queen's Rapier Champions in the East. While I fought my way undefeated to the semi-finals, I keep thinking back on the weekend, and I'm just not happy with my performance. I've been feeling burnt out on fencing and the SCA for a bit. Practice has felt like a chore. Going to events has felt somewhat the same. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to fence at the event. If it wasn't for my friends, I think I'd be taking a long break from the SCA.
Last week, I had to travel to Austin for work. I brought some of my fencing gear with me, so that I could hit their local practice and maybe change my perspective and outlook. I had a pretty good time fencing some different people. So I figured, hell, I'll go fence at K&Q and see how it feels. I didn't expect to make it out of m pool, so I only brought a sword and a dagger with me.
The first round was a round robin with 7 people in my list, so 6 fights. I lost to Ogedai (theme for the day) and Yehuda. Against Ogedai, my foot would just not foot. I went for a lunge, and my foot never came off the ground. It was odd and a little unsettling. Against Yehuda, I approached the bout like it was at practice where we face each other regularly. I went 4-2 in the pool, tied with Orlando for second place. Since I beat him head-to-head, they gave me the tie breaker so I advanced to the Sweet 16.
In the first round of the 16, I faced Malcolm. Again, someone I fence regularly. Hell, I'm to be the best man at his wedding, and hope that this bout did not change that. I beat him two straight, though both bouts were very different. The first was like fencing in slow motion and the second was fought at hyper-speed.
In the second round, I faced Sorcha. She tried to close with me in both bouts, getting in but without control of my blade. I legged her in the first round and got my dagger on her in the second round. Thus I advanced again.
In the third round, I faced Wyatt. He hit me good in the face in the first round. In the second, I popped him in the face. In the third, I'm not sure what happened, but I took the bout.
Thus I made it to the semi-finals undefeated. In the semis, I faced Ogedai. He had to beat me in 2 bouts which were 2-3, while I had to just take one. He got me twice in bout sets of matches, while I was only to get him once, thus I was eliminated, while he advanced to the finals.
Antonio was on fire, and I'm somewhat glad I didn't have to face him, since we fence so often.
So I finished high in the tournament and lots of people congratulated me and said I was fencing very well. Problem is, I can only think about how sloppy I think my fencing was. Internally, nothing seemed to be crisp, yet I was winning bouts. It felt like my blade was all over the place. So while I should be happy for a final four appearance, I feel like Eeyore. Its possible I'm holding myself to a higher standard, but I don't think so. I've finished lower in the tournament and felt better. I think I'm so burnt out I can only see the bad and not the good. I was moody after the tournament, not because I lost in the semi finals, but because I was just not really that happy.'
I'm just not sure how to overcome this burnt out feeling.
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Wow, it's been quite a while since I posted on this blog. I have not really fenced as much as I would have looked to since Pennsic. I have been busy but that's no excuse. Since Pennsic, I've gotten married,, went on or honeymoon to Disney World, we are expecting a baby in 2-1/2 months. We are currently getting the budget together. I autocratted Mudthaw this year, and since that event I've had a natty cough I just can't seem to shake. I missed k&q rapier due to illness this year.
Still no excuses. I've gotten fat. Maybe not fat but certainly out of s shape. I have no endurance and my strength is not what it should be. I'm near my heaviest I've ever been at 198. I need to lose weight and get back in shape.
I saw the results my friend, Scott Alex, has had with P90x3, the 30 minute work out version. So I ordered it yesterday. I wasn't this for me. I want to be healthier. I want to be able to run around and play with my son. I know I sit to much, so as Yoda said "Do or do not, there is no try!"
My goal is to get back to 160 by Pennsic. That's 38 pounds in a little under 100 days.